Mental by Justice Serai
Publication date: April 7th 2015
Genres: Contemporary, Young Adult
Publication date: April 7th 2015
Genres: Contemporary, Young Adult
Hope
is an illusion meant to convince the broken to keep on living. That’s
me. Broken.
My
father pays heaps of money for doctors at the Norfolk Psychiatric
Center to fix me. I’ve spent six months of my prime teenage years
at this residential facility – a place for teenagers who’ve gone
mental.
That’s
me. Mental.
Just
when I begin to feel myself fade away, a boy with a wolfish smile and
mischievous eyes reels me in. Julian is broken too, but he believes
in me enough for the both of us. Through him, I begin to experience
this thing called hope. Doctors can’t fix me, my parents can’t
either, but maybe it’s not me who needs fixing.
After
all, mental is only a state of mind. It all depends on who’s doing
the thinking.
“Aren’t
you scared of me?”
“No.
Why?” His lips curve into a smile. “No offense, but you’re
kinda small.”
I
ignore the remark. I’ve gotten skinny since coming here, but food
prepared by strangers gives me the creeps. Erica advised me toonly
eat packaged food, and the center allowed it when I threatened to go
on a hunger strike.
“You’re
not allied with them?” I gesture toward the other patients playing
videogames.
His
brow arches. “What is this? World War Three?” He chuckles then
sets his big eyes on me, blinking innocently, and I’m reminded of
how Red Riding Hood fell so easily for the Big Bad Wolf. “I promise
you I have no allies yet.”
I
nod because that’s the only thing I can think to do.
“Why
do you ask?”
Swallowing
hard, I manage to say, “They hate me.”
He
laughs again. “Why would anyone hate you?”
“Probably
because they think I’m crazy.”
Placing
the crayon carefully on the table, he looks me in the eye. “That’s
a strange reason to hate someone.” There’s honesty in his
expression. Something I haven’t seen in a long time. It’s quiet
for a moment before he asks, “So, are you crazy?”
“Yes.”
I
hold my breath and wait for him to walk away. Part of me wants him to
go. Life is less complicated when you don’t have friends. But
there’s another part of me that’s so unbelievably lonely, I
actually miss the company of the voices. Sometimes I lay awake at
night and picture myself slowly sinking into the bed, disappearing
from the world one centimeter at a time. The Amazing Vanishing Girl.
Would anybody miss me?
The
boy purses his lips as he nods solemnly. “Well, now that we got
that out of the way… I’m Julian.” He sticks out his hand.
What?
He’s not leaving? I stutter stupidly for a moment then ask, “Why?”
“Because
that’s what my mother named me.”
“No.”
I ignore his outstretched hand and he puts it down. “I mean, why
are you talking to me?”
Then
he smiles – a perfectly imperfect smile that makes me feel like I’d
happily agree to anything that comes out of his beautiful mouth.
What
big teeth you have, Mr. Wolf,I
think.
“Because
you’re pretty,” he says, and I think my heart literally stops.
A
moment later, I inhale a deep breath and try to recover. Somehow, I
know this boy will change me, irrevocably, irreversibly.
“So’s
the devil,” I say, breathless.
He
leans in, eyes sparkling. “So what’s your name, pretty devil?”
My
mouth moves before I realize I’m speaking. “Lucy.”
If
my name weren't enough to doom me to nerdville, my love of all things
dark and weird would. Inspired by stories of hope
and perseverance throughout history, in my own life, and in
the lives of people I know, I strive to write authentic YA
fiction for the oddball in all of us.
I want to make people think deeply, feel wholly, and laugh and cry, just as I have.
I'm no stranger to tricky topics such as LGBTQ issues, adoption, disabilities, and mental illness, and I hope you come to love my characters as much as I do.
I want to make people think deeply, feel wholly, and laugh and cry, just as I have.
I'm no stranger to tricky topics such as LGBTQ issues, adoption, disabilities, and mental illness, and I hope you come to love my characters as much as I do.
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Can't wait to write my review on this book. Looking forward to reading more from you too! Love also that you write about topics that many do not focus on! Keep going I am sure the readers love you too!
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